I Really Should Have Listen to My Mummy...

My mum told me few weeks before that I shouldnt be too close with a somebody. I was like defending myself and him. She told me that I should kinda have gabs with him. Now, I believe her. I think she's right. Just so damn right. Ive started to realise something has to be done. Mummy was always right.

I've realized something. I should have not be too close with him. Too much things had been said and done between me and him. I think I should step back a bit. Recently, I just want to scream to his face and make him realized he hurts me too damn much.

Things like too much excuses, too much I have other plans, all those lies and all those blank promises. That is so selfish dude. Go. Go and have fun with your friends that seems to be there with you when you really need help. Let us see whether you can live without me.

OMG! I've been there for you in too many ways. I've given too much because you have a special place in my heart. What the hell am I thinking? I think I have to think back on this one because you seems to take all of it for granted.

I just wanna say thanks to my mum. She made me realize this one. Thanks mummy and I love you! And to this dear friend, sorry dude. Case seems to be closed and I guess everything will be different for you.

In few days time (when I'm ready to let you go), there will be no more goodnite textes, how's your day greetings, plans of going out and all of the things we used to do before. I'm just too bored with all of it already.

I'll leave you just to see if we're both better without each other. In my opinion, there will be not even a single person that will do what I've done with you. I'm so sorry of letting you suffer like this and I believe you have better people around you. You'll forget me fast actually. Trust me.

a simple note for everyone

__frens, gudluck for final exams guys...we can do it...may God's blessing be with us...amen__

++dearest ogy, happy bday in advance...luv u till death...keep up dos stupid,crazee jokes k???luv u sweetheart++

__my family in miri...i mish all of u n i cant wait to be home!!!ai!!!__

++to myself...emma, boleh tu...usaha lebih ckit...gear up babe!!!luv u emma!!!++

__my BSS family (shah alam + kedah) again, all the best for final n study smart ya guys...my hsemates...let us burn the night oil n candles...hehehe...bising2 pn x pa...my lalink sae n frens in kedah...cant wait for u guys...buat betul2 tau...__

++huhu...i'll x be writing dis blog for a long tyme ltr...final exam is just in 2 days tyme...OMG!!!tyme flies kan???huhu...i wish i can do my best...++

__im so much in troubles actually but i kinda settled some of it...thanks 2 all yg involved...my frens n 'fiance'...terima kasih kamu semua...__

++this year seems to suck so damn much...i hope after half year pass i'll be ok...x more unwanted problems n all...pray hard to God...++

__i think i'll better stop nw...im gonna mish writing lar~ hua hua hua...bubye!!!__

++out!!!++

going back to where i really belong

im so excited lar!!!i finally can say IM COMING BACK HOME!!!i mish dem so damn much bha...believe it or not it's been i dunno maybe 4 months or 5 since i last met them...only God noes hw much i cant wait 2 get home n i wana kacau edgar(yup...yg tdo ni edgar) n wana go jln2 wif him...wait a mok...im coming back 4 revenge!!!hahaha!!!

and dis 1 of coz...dat always drive me off the walls!!!i mish his innocentness...Gosh~ i really cant wait!!!mesti he gemuk sdh nw...:P

my new angel...Joycelyn...huhu...aunty misses u so much dear!!!i noe u're a big girl odi!!!sob3~~~really n seriously cant wait 2 hold her in my arms!!!arrghh!!!i hate dis feeling!!!

and of coz...dis crazy buddies!!!mick,olive n my dearest toi!!!apu...seriously!!!!!!!!knapa bha begitu lma!!!!i wanna hug dem all!!!i'll be going back 2 miri dis 9th May 2009...im looking 4ward 2 meet ALL of dem...my anak2 n cuzzies lain...i texted my cuzzies straight away after i confirmed my ticket...:D

so...Miri...here i come!!!

xoxo!!!

p/s: b4 dat menderita dlu 4 final!!!arrghh!!!tension lg!!!

bila org cakap buruk pasal org yg kta plg syg

i was having dis phone conversation wif a girl yg mengaku dia ex-gf my close fren...sengaja sy srh dia brcrita pjg lebar...byk bnda yg sy fikir dia tipu sy sbb pa yg she told me 2 mmg mcm bkn btul sbb my dear fren x buat pn bnda2 mcm 2...all i noe is dia mmg akn respect org...girls especially...selama sy knl dgn dia, he nvr does nythng yg bleh buat me hilang respect wif him...

maybe dia jahat in certain ways dlu...i admit dis...bt x penah terlintas pn dlm my mind yg dia akn bwa pompuan msk bilik dia n buat bnda yg bukan2...i noe kalau pn dia sgt2 syg org tu, he x kn buat mcm tu...i evr went 2 his hse n hang out bt xda la smpi mcm 2...he pn slalu g my hse siap stay over lg...klau dia btl2 jht,lma sdh dia buat jht to me kan?lma kot sy knal dia...tell me mna tmpt yg kmi x penah pegi brsama alone...dia x penah over2 n i noe 4rm dat he's a gud guy...klau dgn me he can buat mcm tu, knapa dia x bleh respect org len kan?

in my opinion, dis girl frust sbb dia xdpt a gud relationship wif him...dia yg buat hal n nw x nak mengaku but dats their past...all i wana noe is knapa dia suka libatkn dis guy in any matters...geram oo sy...adakah ptt she said lyke dat...smpi dia ckp phone number dia pn kna reg under my fren's name...huuhuu...grow up will u bt as if i care if she tipu me bt pentingkah if u tell me?bukan ada effect pn dgn sy...ko yg nmpknya kenot buang him 4rm ur life...

maybe jg dia mk buat me jeles kot memandangkn byk bnda she said mesti psl my close fren...dia ckp she broke up wif her bf pn psl him,dia pnya num pn reg under my fren's name, her 2st luv pn him, bla bla bla...huuhuu...if she nak tau, nuthng will makes me hilang my trust n respect to him cuz i noe he's a great n noble guy...dia byk bg me courage in life 2 keep me go on dr smua aspects...if org tu x buat buruk dgn kita,buat pa kan we wanna jht2 wif dem?