lame excuses and bullshits!!!

My parents always told me to be good and nice to people around me...love them as much as you love yourself...never make them feel down...they are parts of you...give them the best out of you...

Last few days, this phrase keeps playing in my mind...i have time for people around me...i have time for my family, my bestfriends, my good friend, my 2nd family and my friends...they are part of me...when they need me i'll always be there for them even if im too busy with my own jobs, problems and all...i'll always say, " yeah...sure...i'll be there..." , "okay...what time???" , " i'll be there in no time"...even if im superb busy, i'll always be there also... i'll say, "i'll be there but i'll be a bit late..." or just a short "ok"... as far as i know and remember, i never turn them down yet...did i ever???if i have, please let me know okay???

Now, i have this really bad feeling in me...i start to think and feel the most important individuals seems to forget a person name Emma in their life dictionary...where are you when i really need all of you???i dont need lots of time from all of you...i just want a little ibsy bitsy, tiny little time from you...just an hour...most is only two hours...what did you guys tell me???bullshits and dumb stupid lame excuses...why cant you give me that???OMG!!!im so selfish but i need to spend bit of time also ait with people that i care the most???i deserve it...did i ever give those damn lame bullshits???if i have, please let me know okay???

If you wanna what i really want right now for my birthday, i just need TIME...a bit of time from all of you especially my LOVE ONES...