LOVE...
what is love???love brings lots of meaning and every individual in this world has their own definition for love...what does love really means???well...it depends...Love is not a single feeling but an emotion built from two or more feelings...love is God...love is friendship...love is patient...love is kind..it has no envy nor it boasts itself and it is never proud...it rejoices over the evil and is the truth seeker...
i fall in love for the first time when i was back way too young to understand the meaning of love and it was something that was really inspiring...he was my motivation...i was so pathetic back then...he was seriously my first love...it was in 2000 when i first fall for someone very dear and his name was Shane Steven Filan... :)
yup yup...believe me...i was too naive...too dump...hahaha!!!he has the voice of an angel for me...his voice can just make me fly high...i was totally too over him...i cant sleep at night without listening to him singing to me at night...my family knew bout me addicted to him and they well...just smiled and he's my shining star at that time...i have a secret actually...i really hope one sweet day(and i prayed hard okay) i'll finally meet him and he can sing for me...fingers still crossed till now...haha!!!
as time past by...things changed but i was still in love with him...i was left heartbroken in 2003, 28 December to be exact when he got married to his childhood friend by the name of Gillian Walsh...waw!!!there you go...i've lost my favourite pearl and i dont even know if i can find another one as priceless as he is...LOL~seriously and frankly speaking i really hate that date till now...it reminds me of my past...but still i listened to his voice singing to me every now and then until once again i got hit with a news...he's a daddy already on 23 July 2005 to Nicole Rose Filan...it was a turning point for me...hahaha!!!i felt all those walls were falling upon me and i was stupidly shocked...
i know i seriously sound stupid and full of imaginations but he carved tonnes of memories in me especially during my childhood days...i grew up with his music and everything...he kinda made me the person who im really am now...listening to him through his music teaches me the true meaning of love from songs that he and his lads are singing...i learnt the definition of love,hurt and joy through their songs...
after all those stupid incidents, i betrayed him and the lads...he became someone that i no longer listen to...he still stays in my heart but only as a Westlifer...i listen to other music, people and songs...i kill the feeling of love to him...i seriously seldom listen to him anymore...
after few years of recovering, i can say that im okay and he is still my idol actually...he has two kids by now...a couple...Patrick Michael Filan was born on 15 September 2008...i was kinda happy for him...i can say he's a great father actually by the pictures that i've seen but still he a great male singer to me...in fact i start to listen to him again this year (2009) and can proudly say that im still aspire by his voice even after 9 years of listening to him...i still have his pictures in my laptop and everything...
Cristiano Ronaldo dos Santos Aveiro came in the picture when i was in the process of healing, a friend of mine actually gave me a newspaper cutting on him...it was 4 years ago...his portfolio was quite impressive and i goggled on him after that...my first opinion bout him???he's talented and quite good looking...LOL~ i started to let and teach myself to fall for him...hard though but he's too hot not to fall for...
he's actually a great role model in life because he achieved lots of success in his life (i know he'll achieve more in future) and he never gives up...he keeps on trying and that's the spirit that makes me learn to love him...it's not all about his looks and personality...i dont really care about his personal life because i know he's a casanova...hahaha!!!
it's not that im looking for now but im looking for someone who i can look up to in life...his spirit and determination gives me something new in making myself a better person...he worked hard for who he is now and i know i need to be like him too in order to be a successful person...
he is truly actually my valentine because he makes me smile again and i thanked him for that but dont worry shane...you'll always have a special place in my heart...the most important thing is that i've learn both falling in love and to learn to love...
the reason why i posted this post is because people around me keep asking me why im totally looking up to both of them...well, now you guys know why right???this is my secret and im still proud to say that both of them are one of the most successful personalities in their own fields...
once my friends asked me who's the person i fall in love with and the person i learn to love...this is my answer and i know you guys guess it's somebody else...hahaha!!!the person i once fall in love with is Mr. Filan and the person i learn to love is actually my Mr. Aveiro...
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