++changes in life++

life is full of surprises...life is happy, sad, witty, blissful yet troublesome...in short, life is too complicated...people need changes in life too but somehow a change in life may leads us to not a better tomorrow but a nightmare from hell...yeah...that is life...people may change because that is what they want but some people change because they just do not realize it...

as for me, I think this year (even though new year just started) does bring too much change in my life and to others that are close to me too...for the past few days, my life turned out from hectic to chaos to whatever that you can called busy and surprising...I received lots and lots of unexpected news, numerous unwanted accidents and tones of treasureable new experiences and memories...

I still cannot believe a confession a very close individual had told me...as I am writing all this words down, I am still in shocked...I cant even believe whatever that had been told...they were all unbearable...now I can actually says that I do believe that people change so quickly...I know I do change a lot too...but I think all those news that I just got were really-really shocking...I became numb and I got lost in words...I was speechless...in my opinion now, you should not regret what you've done because that's the path that you've chose and there is no turning back...so, held you head high and please do not regret your decision...love you so much... :)

there are so much things that I wanted to write in this particular post but I don’t think I can do that...life has changed so dramatically for some of us...I took some of it positively because I just don’t want to think about it anymore...it's extremely hard and I know some of us is struggling to fight and win...hey...good luck and I know you can do it...some of us may took things and people for granted and we never realize that what we've done may hurt them...so...grow up and stop hurting others...

it's nearly 2 weeks after new year...I’ve gone through hell, heaven, hell, paradise, hell again ect act.. I've did lots of things and learnt much more than i can ever imagine...I am quit blissful and I just want to thank God with all those experiences...I’ve laugh and poured my heart hell like crazy, I’ve think legally like a professional, I’ve cried like there were no tomorrows, I’ve gone through adventures like a survivor and I am proud to say that I am ready for lots and lots of other experiences that 2009 will brings...

what I think makes me a tougher individual for the past few weeks are God, my parents, my family and of course my 2nd family...these people help me and had made my life easier...I could just called them when I need them...I could just shared what I feel with my 2nd family and all...what makes me proud the most is that they are always always been there for me...there's nothing in this whole wide world that could ever change how I feel when I know they really really love and care about me and they are there when I really need shoulders to cry on...you guys catch me when I fall...

I just cant repay back all of those tones of helps, tears of joy, hard cracking jokes and all that you guys had created just to make me feel comfortable and smile again...thank you and may God bless all of you for the rest of 2009...love you guys till death and always remember that you guys are the treasure that I have and I am proud to have you guys as the missing pieces of me...