perasaan-perasaan yg sgt kurang ajar

skali lagi...

perasaan2 yg tertera d bwh menusuk ke dlm hatiku secara rambang,sejajar,melintang,menegak,sistematik dll...

1. perasaan rindu yg teramat sgt kpd beliau
2. perasaan kecewa dan putus asa
3. perasaan seolah2 aku ingin lari sejauh yg mungkin
4. perasaan sakit hati terhadap org yg mengambil kesempatan dgn org len
5. perasaan yg knapa aku msh x bleh tinggalkan dia

knapa bha smua nie jd???dis is d most fuckiest( so sorry cuz i curse again...) year of my life...i never feel dis bad b4...NEVER!!! sakit2 mana pun me penah jatuh...i never feel dis bad like dis...

im sorry if i have 2 say dis...sakit mata melihat dan mendengar benda2 yg menyakitkan hati saya skrg...i tried my best 2 run bt i cant...im just trap in dis world of nowhere...i need 2 get out...im sick of all dis scandals...im sick of my life...im sick of d feeling of missing him n i duno wht will my future brings...

wht more can i say???sick n tired...i dun even hve enough courage 2 move on...im just killing myself softly...no one understand hw i feel...all dis days i keep on saying...

'emma,dun wori...u'll b ok...'

manada!!!each n everyday nda pernah ok...im oso tired of crying...mmg me nampak happy n all bt yeah...perasaan d atas menganggu hidup!!!