My Newest Blog in FS...My New Beginning

Huh…what a pit-stop…my journey of life begins again like I was being instructed to leave tones of wonderful and valuable things in my past once again …it was really hard for me to do so because I still can feel the pain now…the exact moment when I am writing this blog…
Starting back from the very 1st point here was not an easy work…working my ass hard here was such a big challenge…the biggest of them all I guess…I may seems to be very positive from my friends’ perspective but inside of me I’m still trying my best to make this fight seems to be controllable…I prayed every now n then to make myself tough enough so that I can get through this very damn uninvited challenge…

My new journey began on December 28th 2007 when I had to start a new semester in UiTM Shah Alam…I think I was going to be okay at first because I thought I know I can…wah…confident je Emma…hehehe…but nevertheless, it turned out wrong…I suffered from missing my family and friends symptom…the only person that knows I cried myself to sleep at night is my dearest and only friend, God…back in kolej Mawar…I cried my heart out if I missed them all…I may look happy, giddy and all but deep inside me I’m suffering…pressures upon pressures…with workloads, lecturers, annoying and ungrateful friends, egos and everything…my life sucks during my first semester in UiTM Shah Alam…I felt nothing…I felt not even a bit of me loving my new place…the shittest shit of all shit is that I don’t know how to make myself feel I supposed to not feel sad, complaining and all…my only wish was to end my first semester here quickly…but I thank God only for one thing…I love my classmates…they kind of brighten up my day out a little bit…I also want to thank my greatest supporters…ogy and enong…you guys back me up a lot…ivy and veron…thanks for all of the good and crazy moments…

After long despondency yet awful moments…the most awaited moment of my life was approaching…my semester holidays were in the town!!! yay!!! I can’t wait to be home…when I was home…I felt like I was the real Emma…the crazy Emma…heehaw…I needed superb crazy holidays rupanya…well…back in my hometown, I went out with my old and new friends, my family and my cousins…watched EURO cup sambil texting with everyone…hahaha!!!then sleeping and eating…everything was FREE!!! It was great and blissful moments…fighting with my brothers, crazy days with my nephews and nieces…hurm…I was contented…moment of truth??? It was when I passed all of my papers!!! Yay!!! Hooray to Emma!!! Thank God…but still I don’t know what my next semester will bring…wink**

What did I learn this year??? Till this month of August, I’ve been through a lot…moving to my new home, reuniting back with my family members from UiTM Kedah(Elisa, Danny, Suzie, Desmond, Lia, Mas, Joel, Cheryl n others), coping with myself, starting and skipping classes, meeting new people…. bla bla bla…but one thing for sure, I still mish my other missing pieces that always makes me feel I’m complete and making me a stress-free person…highlight d situ yer…Living without all of you for nearly a year makes me a strong person and to believe in the phrase ‘till the day all of us be reunite again…’I have a strong faith in this saying now because I now that particular day is yet to come and my days will be brighten again with all those laughter, jokes, fooling around and funny idioms…words cannot express how I feel if the feeling of empty stuck me and for sure I will call or text them all straight away…Guys, cross your fingers on what we all have planned about next year…May God be with us…Amen…

My second semester??? I think I can’t decide what is the correct word for it… all I can say is ‘sabar ja la Emma…’ In life, there are always ups and downs like a rollercoaster ride…journeys in life are always difficult…but I told myself that if I keep on mourning over all of my problems, I will never move on…I decided to tell myself that life is a wonderful journey, paint it with beautiful colours…At the end of July, I told myself that all of the depression should stop immediately…I need to focus back in my life…F*** off to any one that put on stupid shits in my life…I don’t care anymore…this is my life…I’ll live it in my own way…I am not the person that will care about anyone anymore if you won’t listen to me…there will be no more ‘I do care about you’ Emma…So, lets us all sail our own ship all by our own…I think we all need to grow up, respect each others and look at life from different angles now…I will still be a friend that listen to every ones’ problems but I think it is about time we start to solve our own problems by themselves right??? I will always give out my advice but it is up to all of you to listen or whatever you guys want to do with it…All the best because I love all of you till death…