HERE ARE 7 FACTS ABOUT EMMA...tagged by Veronica Guuk~hehehe

1ST: i like 2 eat!!!i luv food so much...i duno y...dats y la my badan besaq no...hahaha!!!eating is my hobby n x 1 can take it away 4rm me...i will finish my food even if im full...blajar habiskan makanan sbb sayang bha dat<--a fren of mine taught me dis...hehehe...thnaks bro...my parents oso slalu cakap,'better finish ur food cuz org yg miskin teda makan like dis emma...'itulah kisah emma & makanan...in other words,im trained x 2 waste food by my family n a fren dat luves eatin too...

2ND: im just 160cm tall wif current weight???63kg!!!hahahaa!!!LOL!!!yeah...gumuk aku nie...dats y la aku sedang ingin menguruskan badanku kunun...hehehee...yeah...berat badan ideal aku sepatutnya 49kg-->55kg...ingat me msa me muda2 dulu bha...i was like 50kg 2 55kg only...santik kunun msa 2...hahahahaaaa!!!wish me luck tho on my mission 2 b kurus again...

3RD: im a true Sarawakian...hehehe...a Mirian 2 b exact...its d place like x others...i mish my hometown so damn much n i cant wait 2 b bax in Miri!!!lots of stuff dat makes me proud 2 b a Sarawakian...culture,people,environtment(yg x polluted lg),everythng la best in Sarawak...most of all i luv d FOOD especially d bereq or vogok!!!yum2!!!i also mish my family n i seriously mish my frens bax in homeland!!!huhu...wht 2 do...aku kna abzkn sem nie d shah alam...kejap lg kta smua jmpa no...Sarawak!!!here i come!!!

4TH: i dun smoke bt i currently live wif smokers...so possibility me kna lungs cancer amat tinggi cuz im a 2ndary smoker...hehehe...seriously i cant stand smokes as i will need 2 use my nasal spray if i cant smell nythng nymore...den ill sneeze n cough...at d end(worst part), i cant even close or open my eyes cuz dia akn berair...whn i was in kedah once i had a very bad headache which caused i cant open my eyes due 2 pendedahan yg terlampau kpd asap rokok...i discovered my weakness whn i was 13...my parents r seriously worried bout my condition bt duno la...aku berserah ja pd Tuhan nie...

5TH: if u asked me about Kedah...i will answer dats d place dat i learnt everythng bout keperitan,kesusahan,kesabaran,kegumbiraan,persintaan,kebencian,kebodohan n lots more in life...yg bestnya pasal tmpt nie dia ajar aku psl keluarga...biasalah...we all borneorians r minority thr...me jmpa my luv ones d sna bha kenen...smua keluarga BSS n chomel group...teda istilah seniors n juniors already...smua mcm adik-beradik,suami-isteri dan sebagainya...me???me dapat my 2nd family thr...jmpa a shoulder 2 cry on,my kekanda,my shayang,my superb crazee housemates,my lalinks...smua la...our kelapak...mcm2 la...best siot thr!!!jumpa c aris sna juga...hehehehe...hes just sum minor guy dat ligthed up my days in kedah setelah aku heartbroken dgn c tutt...huhuhuhu...sakit jg bila heartbroken msa d kedah...mkn chocolate cadbury n vanilla coke everyday...naik berat badan aku no...bt now after i noe who aris really is,i tend 2 Laugh Out Loud!!!hahaha!!!jerk tho...tp dia mmg chumel...hehehehe...

6TH: im a big fan of MANCHESTER UNITED!!!once a devil will always b a devil...bukan kerana aku mensintai c Christiano Ronaldo(hes my drug) dgn sepenuh hati aku trus minat MU kenen tp mmg aku minat since i was in standard 3/4 lg...huhu...i kinda get involved wif football since d neville n beckham's era...hehehe...bt im also a big wrestling fan!!!yeah!!!minat nie since darjah 3...i still remember whn i was in standard 6...aku sanggup tdo awal every thursday den woke up at 1230am 2 watch wwf(ketika itu...tp skrg wwe)...in real life slalu jg aku bergusti nie dgn my family...hahahaa!!!

7TH: d last part of 7 facts bout c emma...lets see...mcm teda lg mo crita dis bha...oh ya!!!ada nie sorg yg dilahirkan 21st August 1989 yg bernama daryl rorote...org ckp he looks exactly like emma...duno la...maybe got separated during birth kali...emma dan c daryl nie menyiasat kenen mana tau la saudara yg hilang...mengurik ngurik la sejarah asal usul keluarga berabz nie bertanya tp usaha fail...mmg bkn family(kecewa)...meaning we r so x related tp he noes a lot about me...bnda yg x penah aku crita dgn org pn dia tau...my family,my own problems,my kegumbiraan,my kesusahan,my crush dll...i hav no secret wif him n same goes 2 him...i noe his story of life...dia nie la yg slalu bwa aku smada ke jln yg benar n jln yg hanjeng ckit bt mostly he sedarkn me sebelum trlmbt...dats y la aku tersangat rapat dgn beliau nie tp masyarakat d luar salah anggap n terover tafsir ttg keakraban trsebut...jd aku ingin menegaskan d sini skali lg...biarla korg nak ckp pa...kmi malas mo jwb sudah...klau ada lg yg tnya, all we can do is smile...

bha...kali nie i wanna tag c christine n c sae...malas aku pikir mo tag spa nie...hehehe...oh ya...c xang oso...

tagged by C.G.L!!!

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

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1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
~ hurm...maybe he needs 2nd chance bt plz...grow up...tapi if dah buat more den once...better get out of my life...

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
~ i wanna have his love???hehehe...God,plz help me...amen...

3. What's you planning for this year's X'mas?
~ have a great xmas in Miri n can i get 2 wish 4 a xmas present???

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
~ hurm...1st give out a thnk you prayers 2 God(invite makan2 nie kenen...) 2nd...i wanna build a church(semua yg kita ada d dunia nie datang dari Tuhan)...3rd...a nice vacation wif my family...a private 1 tho...bring all my family members...4th...bwa my bestfriends n my 2nd family p vacation juga!!!maybe go australia???or ireland???hehehe...i luv dem sama like i luv my family...dey r d missing pieces of me...5th...beli brg2 yg patut...

5. Will you u fall in love with your best friend?
~ yeah!!!hahaha!!!luv him till death...xoxo!!!

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
~ being luved by sum1...

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
~ i duno...let tyme decide...

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
~ hurm...rumit nie...biar la...just wait n c...(crossed-fingers)hehehe...as long as he's x married i still have chance ait???

9. If you would like to record a song, with who will it be?
~ definetally Westlife!!!dey r my all tyme fav...

10. What will you do if your crush set you up with his/her bestfriend?
~ OMG!!!damn!!!i thnk dis will b gud...ill accept it... :) wanna noe y???me wanna korek secrets...

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
~ have my own life n my career???

12. What’s your fear?
~ fear of losing him... :P

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
~ shes quit funny n me sakit kaki nie sundun ko p bwa sa jln2 d tymesquare!!!LOL!!!

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
~ none of d above... :P

15. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?
~ switch off my alarm or answer phone call or reply text dat my fren's send(mengganggu tdo aku jak keja)...

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
~ relationship wif God yes bt x wif whoever dat will have relationship wif me nw...sorry!!!

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
~ ok...i thnk i will choose d person who luves me as much as i luv him...d other 1 still i can b wif him ait???he will b my fren...we hav 2 luv our frens oso ait??? ;D

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
~ i will forgive bt ive learnt not 2 forget...sorry folks...dats wht i learnt n dats wht i will practise...

19.Do you prefer to be a young mother or a divorce mother at 40?
~ hurm...can i dun choose both???hahaha!!!LOL!!!a young mother perhaps...

20.List 5 people to tag....
~ hurm...aloy...veronica guuk...sherer...xang??...nonoi...

kami jumpa duit palsu,maksiat n misteri sebelah rumah???

1st issue, hurm...ketika aku sedang mengemas blog2 ini...ivy came out 4rm her room...i thnk i got dpt duit palsu la guys...we all pn gago2 chck duit tu...den mmg kmi rsa duit it mmg duit palsu...reasons:
1. dat bunga raya x bersambung wif each othr bila dilipat
2. dat money is slightly smaller den duit yg lain
3. dat money fades n garisan x btl
4. perkataan yg ringgit msia d bwh bt bkn d atas
5. enong declare mmg bkn duit palsu<--kami smua bole sue klau salah(ema,ogy,lison n ivy ckp)

2nd issue, enong ckp ema kecoh...elisa n veron tdo...kedai yg bg duit itu x penah tutup eventho dia cuma kedai fotostat...24 hrs kunun...heran kmi...rison ckp kedai itu sgt sesuatu...maybe ada maksiat d jlnkn d citu...hurm...ada seorg yg kurang upaya jaga itu kedai topap itu bersama kedai fotostat...kami heran...dia cacat tp x tdo mlm...masalah tu...kmi pening lalu ada yg merokok,makan lollercostel,on9,men gitar...

3rd issue...sebelah rumah kmi...misteri ya...ema p buat research...seminggu...lampu dia x off everyday...24hrs x off...felikkn???den...dapur got nuthng ma...heran kn???tp dulu2 kmi dgr ada org jerit2 n kejar2 bha thr...ivy ckp mcm ogy pnya voice tp nw she said agak la mcm suara ogy...klau msk cot mmg kalah...nda sure nie...tp kmi mmg slalu dgr bha...heran...org jerit la...mcm2 bha...every pukul 3-4 am...den dat day we dgr dem rooming...hurm...mcmna kah itu???we oso got dgr dem ketuk2 brg...ptg td...rakan2ku mkn...ketika baliq...meka tguk rmh itu ada nwspaper bergantung,langsir x tarik,xda perabot...ada yg mo p chck bt ada yg takut...misteri btl...i thnk mmg ada sumtng wrong in sek 7 nie...mcm2 ada...

got the blues of blurness :(

i duno wht will happen 2 me...huhu...my life is getting tougher each n everyday!!!knapa bha nie???mcm shiat!!!haiyo!!!y bha...i felt rally2 bad rite now...i duno wht i can do 2 help myself...it just seems dat im falling apart...:( sedih bha aku nie...maybe yeah...dis is life bt i have 2 get bax in track...i felt like ive been through hell...hw will i get through my weeks???kejap lg finals bha!!!

dh la my test 4 mandarin mcm kimak!!!b*** hutan btl!!!maybe im going 2 fail my mandarin oo nie...let us all expect d unexpected 4rm emma...God...plz help me...im running out of hope...i just wanna give up...i cant hold on...i feel like shiat!!!i dun thnk any1 understand my situation nw...i duno hw 2 help myself...knapa bha emma mcm nie skrg???!!!i need to WAKE UP!!!

me rsa sedih bha nie...maybe im going 2 fail most of my subjects dis sem...i duno hw i can just b d old emma...old emma dat noes her limits n noes whn 2 stop n thnk...bila bha mo sedar nie emma???yarabi astaga!!!penat sdh berfikir bnda2 yg x penting...stop wasting tyme n WAKE UP!!!byk benda mo kna buat nie...start 2 do ur work NOW!!!bergerak pantas!!!if keep on lyke dis whn wanna maju dis???

WAKE UP n BE D OLD EMMA!!!cepat sebelum terlambat!!!

kepenatan n enong's bday party!!!

hehehe...penat siot...nak tau y me penat ka???hehehe...cuz i did nuthng other den sleep 24/7!!!hahaha!!!yeah...best oso bha dis week...i spent most of my tyme wif elisa,rison n ogy...hehehe...yg plg x bleh bla every nite nie p lepak...huhuu...eh...lupak me...me ada new pendrive odi...hehehe...2gb jer...murah me beli dis...rm 22.80...hehehe...bli kt pas jer...

hurm...i thnk my days dis week quit ok lar...hehehe...my report oso got approved by ms joan so i thnk im on d rite track...hehehe...dats a gud news too ait???hurmm...apalagi no...jap2...yeah...2day we all went shopping a bit...biasa la...elisa blanja makan...her duit ptptn masuk odi dis!!!yeah!!!she bought 2 cellphones nie...den we oso bought a bit of stuff 4 enong's bday dis saturday...

enong's bday...waw!!!a big 1 i guess...8pm dis saturday at our hse...come la...hehehe...all r invited...till dis moment...around 30 party people yg dah confirm dtg...hehehe...i guess we need 2 tidy up our hse yg sememangnya semak n lyke tungkang pecah...hehehe...lots of thngs to do...wish all of luck tho...

yesterday n today

hehehe...yeah...merendeq...i started 2 merendeq since merdeka...byk oo me blajar 4rm merendeq...bt 1 thng 4 sure...im doing thngs dat r making me happy...pastu every week x penah miss mkn kepsi...badan aku naik dis...hehehe!!!

learnt a lot bout d value of frenships n hw i can make myself apprieciate thngs around me more...yeah...maybe sum people r annoying bt staying up on wht i believe is rather important...

huhuhu...tp me rsa my life nw is quit hethic...mmg bz berabz...i thnk i can say nw is dat im doing my best 2 cope up wif it...dh la tests hancur...susah pulak tu...mcm kimaks!!!harap2 pas nie i wont repeat d same mistakes again...

okay...if u asked me nw wht i thnk bout luv...i'll def. answer...'luv does hurt...' yeah...maybe i sound selfish cuz i dun really wanna hurt myself once more...im sick of being hurt...im learning 2 spread my wings again...altho i may look happy bt inside of me im still bleeding...i promise u all dat i'll 4get all d past n start a nw chapter...all i can say is if he's mine, he will b mine x matter wht happen ait???

i wish i can say i believe in miracle once again bt i dun rite nw...shiat!!!i thnk miracle just dun get 2 me nwadays...biar la...its faith ait???biar la...bt still...if miracle happens again dis tyme, better b sumthng dat i wish 4 4rm d bottom of my heart...dats all i ask 4 nw...God...plz answer my prayers...Amen...

My Newest Blog in FS...My New Beginning

Huh…what a pit-stop…my journey of life begins again like I was being instructed to leave tones of wonderful and valuable things in my past once again …it was really hard for me to do so because I still can feel the pain now…the exact moment when I am writing this blog…
Starting back from the very 1st point here was not an easy work…working my ass hard here was such a big challenge…the biggest of them all I guess…I may seems to be very positive from my friends’ perspective but inside of me I’m still trying my best to make this fight seems to be controllable…I prayed every now n then to make myself tough enough so that I can get through this very damn uninvited challenge…

My new journey began on December 28th 2007 when I had to start a new semester in UiTM Shah Alam…I think I was going to be okay at first because I thought I know I can…wah…confident je Emma…hehehe…but nevertheless, it turned out wrong…I suffered from missing my family and friends symptom…the only person that knows I cried myself to sleep at night is my dearest and only friend, God…back in kolej Mawar…I cried my heart out if I missed them all…I may look happy, giddy and all but deep inside me I’m suffering…pressures upon pressures…with workloads, lecturers, annoying and ungrateful friends, egos and everything…my life sucks during my first semester in UiTM Shah Alam…I felt nothing…I felt not even a bit of me loving my new place…the shittest shit of all shit is that I don’t know how to make myself feel I supposed to not feel sad, complaining and all…my only wish was to end my first semester here quickly…but I thank God only for one thing…I love my classmates…they kind of brighten up my day out a little bit…I also want to thank my greatest supporters…ogy and enong…you guys back me up a lot…ivy and veron…thanks for all of the good and crazy moments…

After long despondency yet awful moments…the most awaited moment of my life was approaching…my semester holidays were in the town!!! yay!!! I can’t wait to be home…when I was home…I felt like I was the real Emma…the crazy Emma…heehaw…I needed superb crazy holidays rupanya…well…back in my hometown, I went out with my old and new friends, my family and my cousins…watched EURO cup sambil texting with everyone…hahaha!!!then sleeping and eating…everything was FREE!!! It was great and blissful moments…fighting with my brothers, crazy days with my nephews and nieces…hurm…I was contented…moment of truth??? It was when I passed all of my papers!!! Yay!!! Hooray to Emma!!! Thank God…but still I don’t know what my next semester will bring…wink**

What did I learn this year??? Till this month of August, I’ve been through a lot…moving to my new home, reuniting back with my family members from UiTM Kedah(Elisa, Danny, Suzie, Desmond, Lia, Mas, Joel, Cheryl n others), coping with myself, starting and skipping classes, meeting new people…. bla bla bla…but one thing for sure, I still mish my other missing pieces that always makes me feel I’m complete and making me a stress-free person…highlight d situ yer…Living without all of you for nearly a year makes me a strong person and to believe in the phrase ‘till the day all of us be reunite again…’I have a strong faith in this saying now because I now that particular day is yet to come and my days will be brighten again with all those laughter, jokes, fooling around and funny idioms…words cannot express how I feel if the feeling of empty stuck me and for sure I will call or text them all straight away…Guys, cross your fingers on what we all have planned about next year…May God be with us…Amen…

My second semester??? I think I can’t decide what is the correct word for it… all I can say is ‘sabar ja la Emma…’ In life, there are always ups and downs like a rollercoaster ride…journeys in life are always difficult…but I told myself that if I keep on mourning over all of my problems, I will never move on…I decided to tell myself that life is a wonderful journey, paint it with beautiful colours…At the end of July, I told myself that all of the depression should stop immediately…I need to focus back in my life…F*** off to any one that put on stupid shits in my life…I don’t care anymore…this is my life…I’ll live it in my own way…I am not the person that will care about anyone anymore if you won’t listen to me…there will be no more ‘I do care about you’ Emma…So, lets us all sail our own ship all by our own…I think we all need to grow up, respect each others and look at life from different angles now…I will still be a friend that listen to every ones’ problems but I think it is about time we start to solve our own problems by themselves right??? I will always give out my advice but it is up to all of you to listen or whatever you guys want to do with it…All the best because I love all of you till death…

The Given Memories of All Memories

Where the hell is that place? This was the very first question that popped out of my head when I was destined to leave my very precious hometown as my faith brought me to the place that taught me the real meaning of being an independent individual as I have to stand my own feet without my parents, learning to think wisely as a matured person and most of all to treasure the value of friendship.

This is the place that I will surely miss for the rest of my life. Yes, I have to admit it as I first thought this place could be like hell and when I first came here I felt that I was in 1980s. Nevertheless, it was better than what I had imagined and my first impression was totally off beam. The place I labeled as 1980s town turned to be the greatest place to escape from who I was before (I was a homey-girl according to my friends back in hometown) and it was only after all of us discovered Penang after Francis Light (we always used this phrase) as well as other ‘hidden beauties of it’. Yes, every place does come with its very own package.

This place was the place where I learnt to fly and spread my wings without crossing the limit and passport rules given by myself to myself. I considered the voyage given by God to me to this particular place was a detour to be a better person and as an eye-opener to me. I was living under my parents’ roof for 18 years and they guided me in my life before. Learning to fly and to spread my wings was not as easy as a b c and personally; it took me more than what I have been through before. I need to be very wise in every step I made to make sure my life in this place runs as smooth as it should be.

In this place, I found a wonderful yet unutterable treasure that I will cherish for the rest of my life. A family. A family consists of a mixture of us which yet became one. A family which I can be proud if I was asked to portray them to the rest of the world. All of us; from being friends to partners in crimes, three stooges, bujats, admirers, couples, best of friends and most of all brothers and sisters. As for me, after all the obstacles that we all have been through together, we are separate pieces of puzzle that came from various jigsaws that made out an image. Thanks for being part of me because I know I’m not a perfect person but all of you help me to be a better person each and everyday. There is nothing that I can do to repay back all of the bitter and sweet memories that all of you had gave to me. May God gives all the best of luck and blessings to all of you.

All of these time, I have been wondering whether I will miss this place once I says out my last goodbye. Without my consent, I will be leaving a piece of my life that is this place but I know everything must come to an end. I’ve completed a chapter of my life here and there will be a new beginning for me. Yes, perhaps I will miss Kedah and all the good deeds that it had offered me but my journey of life needs to go on. Kedah is only a pit-stop for me and I have bigger obstacles ahead waiting to be challenge.

my old blog...can get it in my friendster's acc

yeah...u guys can get my previous blog thr...

i sumtimes dun hav enough time writing blogs actually...

hehehe...bt i thnk nw i hav too cuz yesh...bz a bit bt i need 2 find tyme doing thngs i wana do ait??

i've learnt a lot nowadays...i deserve 2 b happy n im doing thngs dat makes me feel happy nw...

so...sorry if i happen 2 hurt people dat i love d most...sorry...